What a night! Or should I say morning. Early morning. At 2:14 I rolled over in bed. My leg was on my j-tube so when I rolled over my tube pulled out 4 inches!!! I screamed. It hurt so bad!!! I saw that my balloon was deflated which is why it came out. The balloon holds it whenever it gets pulled. Anyway, I got it in about an inch, and then Mom had to get the last 3 inches in b/c I couldn't get it. We had to rush to the ER to make sure it was placed right when we pushed it back in. I had to stop my feeds a little early, too. Anyway, they had to do an x-ray, but they were able to cover the baby so that was great. Oh, I got to see the baby again! He was moving around like crazy! He was doing somersaults. lol So cute. :-)
We finally got home around 5:30. They got me right me in, and it wasn't too busy, thankfully. I'm still hurting and I'm so swelled. If it's not one thing it's another. :-)
All I have to do is hold out till my surgery and hope and pray it doesn't come out again. I'm so nervous about going to sleep tonight.... It's taped down, but I'm also going to wrap it out.
Plus, my phone hasn't been charging and kept on dying, and I get and make tons of doc/medical calls every day. So I had to go get a new one. So more money spent. Argh. lol Such is life. At least I saved $50!
It's been a busy busy day. My poor Mom.... She hardly got any sleep and had to take me to get a new phone and the doc about my j-tube. She is the bestest, sweetest mother ever. I love you, Mummy. ;-)
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
OB Appointment
So I have some great news. NOT. I went to the OB yesterday, and they decided to put me on a blood thinner. I figured they would since I'm in a wheelchair, but I thought it would be a pill. They decided it's too risky for the pill since I have to surgery in 2-3 months. I could go into preterm labor which would not be good. So.... I have to give myself shots in my abdomen twice a day. I've had these whenever I'm in the hospital but only once a day and never giving it to myself. It burns, of course, and you bruise really bad. I have to do this until I have the baby. Walgreens doesn't have it in yet, but I'm not complaining!!! lol I am so dreading it.... I wish it was in the arm instead. Oh, well. :-)
And then to top it all off, when the doc came in (a different one from last time) he was like so before we get into this more, do you want to continue. I was like what???!! I'm not going to abort my baby. He's a gift! A blessing! Made me so mad. Then they moved my geneticist appt. up to this Thursday in case that changes my mind and I could still do something. THESE DOCS ARE RIDICULOUS!!!!!! What about all the moms out there who don't want their kids and don't take care of their kids? Did you say that to them? Of course not! Because they usually aren't high risk! They just infuriate me. I wish I could switch, but everybody wants me there b/c my GI is there. Sigh. I can't stand the thought of being in labor with one of these docs around.
My quilt should be done next week!!! So thrilled. Mom and I are going to work on the bumper tomorrow, and I need to work on the banner. I have so many appts. this week I don't know how in the world I'm going to finish it. Last night and this evening I'm feeling really sick, or I would work on it now. I'm praying I can finish it by this weekend. I can really use the money, too. :-) I'm hoping to get another order somehow. There is a woman in the quilting class who wants to see pics of my stuff. Maybe that could be a job opportunity. ;-) We'll see. It would be nice....
Tomorrow is my only free day this week! Craft time. :-D
And then to top it all off, when the doc came in (a different one from last time) he was like so before we get into this more, do you want to continue. I was like what???!! I'm not going to abort my baby. He's a gift! A blessing! Made me so mad. Then they moved my geneticist appt. up to this Thursday in case that changes my mind and I could still do something. THESE DOCS ARE RIDICULOUS!!!!!! What about all the moms out there who don't want their kids and don't take care of their kids? Did you say that to them? Of course not! Because they usually aren't high risk! They just infuriate me. I wish I could switch, but everybody wants me there b/c my GI is there. Sigh. I can't stand the thought of being in labor with one of these docs around.
My quilt should be done next week!!! So thrilled. Mom and I are going to work on the bumper tomorrow, and I need to work on the banner. I have so many appts. this week I don't know how in the world I'm going to finish it. Last night and this evening I'm feeling really sick, or I would work on it now. I'm praying I can finish it by this weekend. I can really use the money, too. :-) I'm hoping to get another order somehow. There is a woman in the quilting class who wants to see pics of my stuff. Maybe that could be a job opportunity. ;-) We'll see. It would be nice....
Tomorrow is my only free day this week! Craft time. :-D
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Frustrated
I had hope that I may be able to get a handicap van, but now I just don't know. It's so upsetting and not fair that a handicap van is twice as much as a normal van. WHY?! Why am I punished for being handicap? It's not fair. We can't afford one. I can't work to pay a payment. I don't know. I feel so discouraged. I want to be able to take my baby to the doc. I need to be able to go to the doc. Ben would have to get out of work almost every day! They would get mad at him. Maybe kick him out. I'm praying and praying that I can somehow someway get one before the baby comes. It's a need, but we can't get it. It's hard. And upsetting. Honestly, everything is tougher and more expensive when you are physically challenged. I just want to cry. I want to be independent. I want to be as normal as possible. I just feel like it's not going to happen. Please pray a miracle happens.
My quilting class went well, but it wore me out. Everything does now. Even washing my dog. lol I can tell my sugar has been dropping, and I've been getting dehydrated. I've been trying to drink a lot so I should be ok....
I've been trying to find some maternity clothes that don't cost an arm and a leg and that are my size. I want to find some while my mom is here, and I can go during the day and in my power chair. Hopefully, I'll find some shorts soon. :-)
The orthodontist said my teeth are looking great. He said I don't know what you are doing, but keep it up. LOL I 'm thinking I just do what you tell me to. :-D I have bands now. I'm hoping my teeth will be done on time or sooner. Wouldn't that be something? It's exciting.
I need to work on my banner. My energy isn't cooperating. Maybe tomorrow. You have to plan, but not get upset if your plan fails for some reason or other. :-)
It helped to vent about the van. Thanks for listening. :-)
My quilting class went well, but it wore me out. Everything does now. Even washing my dog. lol I can tell my sugar has been dropping, and I've been getting dehydrated. I've been trying to drink a lot so I should be ok....
I've been trying to find some maternity clothes that don't cost an arm and a leg and that are my size. I want to find some while my mom is here, and I can go during the day and in my power chair. Hopefully, I'll find some shorts soon. :-)
The orthodontist said my teeth are looking great. He said I don't know what you are doing, but keep it up. LOL I 'm thinking I just do what you tell me to. :-D I have bands now. I'm hoping my teeth will be done on time or sooner. Wouldn't that be something? It's exciting.
I need to work on my banner. My energy isn't cooperating. Maybe tomorrow. You have to plan, but not get upset if your plan fails for some reason or other. :-)
It helped to vent about the van. Thanks for listening. :-)
Friday, April 9, 2010
Baby Shopping!
I've been having fun going to thrift stores and looking at baby things everywhere. lol I can't wait to know the sex of the baby so I can buy clothes!!! I found a toy in great condition at the Fort Hood thrift store. My nephews and niece loved it when they were younger. I saved a ton getting it used. Now I just have to clean it. :-) I want to get a crib, swing, and walker from a thrift store. I'm also going to get a space saver highchair that can hold newborns to toddlers. They had a good one at Target. This is so fun! Especially being able to do this with my mom.
Ben is on night shift at JRTC so he will probably call me at odd hours.... Oh, joy.... As long as it's not early morning.
I'm going to try to get a handicap van so i can have something when the baby is born. There is a woman I can call for help and advice. I'm going to try to call her today. I'm praying and praying I can get one before November! Wouldn't that be awesome?!
My quilting class was awesome. I'm going to work on sewing my pieces together today. I picked fabrics to go with my Beatrix Potter fabric I got to make a crib bumper. I have enough to do both. It should look great together! I'll def post a pic when the quilt is finished. I want to start on the bumper soon, too but I need to get the batting first. I could probably cut it out, though. I'm glad Mom is here to help me with it.
I also need to work on the banner for my friend. I can use the money for you know what. Baby stuff!!! LOL I need to somehow get more orders. I did get on Etsy, but I've been so sick I didn't do anything else. I'm hoping to get started on it soon. Any little bit helps!
That's about it over here. I'm all baby minded lately. That's all. ;-)
Ben is on night shift at JRTC so he will probably call me at odd hours.... Oh, joy.... As long as it's not early morning.
I'm going to try to get a handicap van so i can have something when the baby is born. There is a woman I can call for help and advice. I'm going to try to call her today. I'm praying and praying I can get one before November! Wouldn't that be awesome?!
My quilting class was awesome. I'm going to work on sewing my pieces together today. I picked fabrics to go with my Beatrix Potter fabric I got to make a crib bumper. I have enough to do both. It should look great together! I'll def post a pic when the quilt is finished. I want to start on the bumper soon, too but I need to get the batting first. I could probably cut it out, though. I'm glad Mom is here to help me with it.
I also need to work on the banner for my friend. I can use the money for you know what. Baby stuff!!! LOL I need to somehow get more orders. I did get on Etsy, but I've been so sick I didn't do anything else. I'm hoping to get started on it soon. Any little bit helps!
That's about it over here. I'm all baby minded lately. That's all. ;-)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Story
Here's my story. I had to go to preconceptual counseling because of all my health problems. It took a couple of months to get into them. Well, I went, and the doc said I couldn't have kids. Plus, he also said I shouldn't because of my gastroparesis and Charcot-Marie-Tooth even though I got clearance from my GI and neurologist before I even thought about it. Oh, I saw a genetic counselor, too. I was devastated..... I bawled when I got home. What I and the doc didn't know was that I was ALREADY three weeks pregnant!!! This is a miracle pure and simple.
I know all the worse fears with my health problems and carrying this baby which is why I asked for your prayers for our little one. He/she will grow slower because of one of the meds I have to take. If I don't take the med, the baby will still grow slow because my heart rate will be too fast. Plus, something seriously could happen to me which would affect the baby. They decided it was worth the risk. :-) God let this miracle happen so I know He will take care of him/her.
I wondered if I was pregnant, but I was so discouraged and didn't want to hope because of the docs. It was so hard....... It was a very very difficult time for me. God helped pull me through that's for sure. My GI doc decided to do a blood test because of how I was feeling. It came back positive! I was thrilled. I stayed so super dizzy. I kept on feeling like I was going to pass out because the room was always spinning. Then my GP went crazy, and I couldn't digest my food. I ended up throwing up so much I had to go to the ER for dehydration and low potassium. I was in extreme pain, my body was pins and needles all over, and my heart was faster from the low potassium. I was dehydrated, too so I got an IV and potassium and 4 nausea meds though the IV. They told me to take the nausea meds every 3 hours. It took more than a week for my nausea to get better and for me to put something in my stomach. I flushed water down my j-tube every little bit so I wouldn't get dehydrated and added a little extra calories b/c I was losing weight. The evenings and nights are still hard, but the day time is better if I stick to my meds.
I am so GLAD Mom is HERE!!!!! It's so awesome to have her. Especially when I feel horrible. lol Ben leaves tomorrow for JRTC. I'm hoping to see my sister in heart at the very end of May and early June. Oh, I'm going to start working on my crib bumper. I bought fabric and the pattern in January and put it in my hope chest. It will be a great project for Mom and I. Plus, I started quilting class today, and the quilt matches the bumper. It took me an hour to get the perfect fabric. :-D I'm so excited!!! The quilt will be done at the end of April. I need to buy a sewing machine. I found a really good for only $156 on Amazon. I'm hoping to get that.... We'll see. It does have free shipping. Oh, the sewing machine doesn't have to use a foot pedal! It's perfect with my "physical challenges". lol
That's about it over here. :-)
I know all the worse fears with my health problems and carrying this baby which is why I asked for your prayers for our little one. He/she will grow slower because of one of the meds I have to take. If I don't take the med, the baby will still grow slow because my heart rate will be too fast. Plus, something seriously could happen to me which would affect the baby. They decided it was worth the risk. :-) God let this miracle happen so I know He will take care of him/her.
I wondered if I was pregnant, but I was so discouraged and didn't want to hope because of the docs. It was so hard....... It was a very very difficult time for me. God helped pull me through that's for sure. My GI doc decided to do a blood test because of how I was feeling. It came back positive! I was thrilled. I stayed so super dizzy. I kept on feeling like I was going to pass out because the room was always spinning. Then my GP went crazy, and I couldn't digest my food. I ended up throwing up so much I had to go to the ER for dehydration and low potassium. I was in extreme pain, my body was pins and needles all over, and my heart was faster from the low potassium. I was dehydrated, too so I got an IV and potassium and 4 nausea meds though the IV. They told me to take the nausea meds every 3 hours. It took more than a week for my nausea to get better and for me to put something in my stomach. I flushed water down my j-tube every little bit so I wouldn't get dehydrated and added a little extra calories b/c I was losing weight. The evenings and nights are still hard, but the day time is better if I stick to my meds.
I am so GLAD Mom is HERE!!!!! It's so awesome to have her. Especially when I feel horrible. lol Ben leaves tomorrow for JRTC. I'm hoping to see my sister in heart at the very end of May and early June. Oh, I'm going to start working on my crib bumper. I bought fabric and the pattern in January and put it in my hope chest. It will be a great project for Mom and I. Plus, I started quilting class today, and the quilt matches the bumper. It took me an hour to get the perfect fabric. :-D I'm so excited!!! The quilt will be done at the end of April. I need to buy a sewing machine. I found a really good for only $156 on Amazon. I'm hoping to get that.... We'll see. It does have free shipping. Oh, the sewing machine doesn't have to use a foot pedal! It's perfect with my "physical challenges". lol
That's about it over here. :-)
Monday, April 5, 2010
Update
Mom will be here soon!!! Yay!!! So happy. Tomorrow Mom will take me to my first quilting class. Whoo hoo! I have to go pick up some fabric and a couple more supplies. My friend let me borrow her sewing machine until I can get one. So sweet of her. I'm going to make it a baby quilt. It's a rail fence quilt, and it will be the perfect size for a crib. I still can hardly believe that I'm going to have a baby! Our first child.... I can't wait till June when I find out if it's a boy or girl. So exciting....
I'm planning on going to see me my sister in heart in June. If for some reason, my health isn't that great, she will come here. As long as we are together, we don't care where we meet up! I'm so thankful for my wonderful friend. She really is the sweetest person. :-)
I'm rereading An Affectionate Adversary. Oh, that reminds me. I got my story back. It didn't sell. Sigh. They said the same thing, "It is not suited for our present needs.". Why??!!! My teachers love my stories.... They keep on telling me it's not the stories. I just need to keep sending it out to lots of different magazines. I'm going to send it to "Clubhouse Jr." tomorrow or the next day. We'll see what happens. I will be ecstatic if I ever sell a story.
Ben leaves for JRTC on Wednesday. I'm hoping to paint some canvases for the baby's room. :-) I'm making the crib stuff, curtains, and other things from Beatrix Potter material I found. I'll paint the pics to match. I'm so excited!!! Mom can help me sew the baby stuff. I also need to paint a banner a friend commissioned me to do and write my last story for school. I had to change my deadline because I've been so sick. I'm hoping to start working on it by Wednesday.
I got new wires on my braces, some thing that goes around my brackets (I chose blue), and rubber bands. I'm sore. lol It'll be gone in a few days. :-) At least I'm making good progress!!!
I'm watching the Duke game tonight. Go Duke!!! That's why I chose blue for my braces. LOL
I'm planning on going to see me my sister in heart in June. If for some reason, my health isn't that great, she will come here. As long as we are together, we don't care where we meet up! I'm so thankful for my wonderful friend. She really is the sweetest person. :-)
I'm rereading An Affectionate Adversary. Oh, that reminds me. I got my story back. It didn't sell. Sigh. They said the same thing, "It is not suited for our present needs.". Why??!!! My teachers love my stories.... They keep on telling me it's not the stories. I just need to keep sending it out to lots of different magazines. I'm going to send it to "Clubhouse Jr." tomorrow or the next day. We'll see what happens. I will be ecstatic if I ever sell a story.
Ben leaves for JRTC on Wednesday. I'm hoping to paint some canvases for the baby's room. :-) I'm making the crib stuff, curtains, and other things from Beatrix Potter material I found. I'll paint the pics to match. I'm so excited!!! Mom can help me sew the baby stuff. I also need to paint a banner a friend commissioned me to do and write my last story for school. I had to change my deadline because I've been so sick. I'm hoping to start working on it by Wednesday.
I got new wires on my braces, some thing that goes around my brackets (I chose blue), and rubber bands. I'm sore. lol It'll be gone in a few days. :-) At least I'm making good progress!!!
I'm watching the Duke game tonight. Go Duke!!! That's why I chose blue for my braces. LOL
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