So Called Designated Handicap Spots

This is a rant. lol Ben and I went to see Toy Story 3 last night which I LoVeD, by the way. Anyway, we did get there a little early, but of course the handicap seats were taken. One of them was legitimate, but the other two were so not. Well, the 2 on the floor told their manager. She looked unsure what to do!!! The other woman was like do you want me to do it? And she said no. She finally went up to one of them but they were sitting up  one step. In case you don't know, I CAN'T WALK PEOPLE! Ugh. Anyway, she came back and said that they said that they couldn't move b/c they wouldn't be able to find enough seats to sit together. I was like well, excuse me but you sat in the wrong spot and 3 of your friends were already NOT sitting by you, but in the handicap seats!!!

So the manager was like I don't want to tell them to move b/c they were here first! WHAT?! The seats plainly have handicap stickers on them. Looks to me like they were in the wrong. I personally think no one but handicappers should sit there. The thing that was so annoying was that at other theatres they will always say, if you need us to kick ppl out of the handicap seats let us know. Not so here. But then this woman moved with her son so we did get a spot. She was very kind to move for us. Those other ppl were just RUDE.

So here's the thing. I know ppl think those seats are the "best", but what normal ppl don't realize is that we don't want to have designated seating!!! We want to sit wherever we want. I would love to go hunt for seats like everybody else. I would love to sit up higher, but that isn't an option. I don't want designated parking either! But we have to use it b/c we need the extra space to get me out of the car. I hate how I can get onto the sidewalk at one spot. Did you know that it takes a while to find the ramps sometimes? Or they put it between speedbumps. I'm like are you kidding me???!! Make it harder for me why don't ya. Some stores don't even have ramps! Yes, it's true. Sad but true.

Also, I want to be able to pick any bathroom stall I want, but I can't. If it's dirty, I have to deal with it. No other option. Then there are places where I can't even FIT into the "handicap" stall. I hate it when I get up and have hope that it will work, but then I can't shut the door! Does any of this sound like special treatment to you??? Do you really think it's such a great premium??? But yet, so many ppl use the designated handicap stuff when they don't need it b/c they think it's the best. Get real. I would rather be walking and choosing wherever, whatever I wanted than in a power chair with limited access to anything. Sigh.

I just don't know why ppl can't seem to get it. What is so hard to understand..... We can't help being handicap. It isn't our fault. Why do they make you feel guilty and ashamed over it? It doesn't feel like a luxury to me. It is just another one of those things where you do the best you can with what you have. Don't geto me wrong. I would rather be alive and in this cahir than not. I just hate when ppl don't seem to get it. :-)

Incidentals

Our power was off for 7 hours yesterday!!! From 5 in the evening to midnight. It was so hot! How did people do it back in the day??? It felt so stuffy. It was nice to have candles lit, but the bad thing is that I fell asleep, but woke up when the power came back on... So I didn't go back to bed till 5... The good news is that I had an AwEsOmE book to read!!! It's entitled She Walks in Beauty by Siri Mitchell, and it's set in 1891 New York City. It was full of all the details of being a debutante. I am so glad I am not living in that time period! The women stayed sick and weak from the stupid corsets. They caused more health problems than I realized! No wonder women were so frail back then.... At least the ones who wear a corset were. What ppl do for beauty astounds me. I don't want to ever be that vain or insecure. That would be an awful way to live. Anyway, the main character was so real. I feel like I know her. I didn't want the book to end.... Now I want to read more of her stuff!!!

It's inspiring me to finish my last school assignment. I know, I know, I should have it done a long time ago. I just haven't been that well. I am so praying I can get it done on time. Oh, I am working on two banner orders. I need one more so that I can get my sewing machine. Both the banners are the same design just different colors and initials.

Oh, I can cradle my little baby now. :-) My bump is bigger. It's so exciting!!! I go to the OB next week and in two weeks I find out what we are having!!! I bought a set of three small bottles at Target b/c they had them on sale for $10 this week. I might go  back and get the $20 set. It has 3 small bottles, 2 big bottles, and 2 nuks. I want to use the nuks b/c of the orthodontic help it's supposed to give. There is a big yard sale at Pershing Park this weekend. Charity and I want to go and see if we can find some cheap baby things like a bassinet, crib, boppi, etc. I hope we find some great deals!!!

Saturday

Cute pic of Kaylee.

Ben and I.

Painting

The last few days I have been painting!!! So fun! I finally finished my spring banner that I started a couple months ago, but I was too sick from being pregnant to finish it. But it's finished now.... :-D Also, I painted my summer banner! Each banner took a little more than a day to complete. I need to go to Hobby to get some rods, dowels, and ribbons so I can hang the summer one up, and so I can take some pics to show you! I'm rolling some ideas around for my July 4th banner. I have a couple good ideas, but the one may be too complicated for me to do b/c next week I am swamped with appointments. I only have one free day. We'll see what happens. I also know what banner I will do in between summer and Thanksgiving. Then I need to do a Christmas one. So about three more banners ,and my house will be done.

I would love to work on the paintings for the baby's room soon. That should be fun! I want to sketch the pics out, but I might wait to paint them until I know for sure what the baby will be. That way I can change the colors if I want. :-)

I need to write my story for school!!! I should take my laptop with me to the docs next week. Plus, I want to send in an essay about my adopted dog to AllYou magazine. I can not decide what pic of her I want to send in.... Wouldn't it be something if our story won?!?! The money would def help. I'm nervous b/c I want it to be well-written, and I want them to see how sweet my three-legged dog is. She is priceless. I'm glad she has a home now....

I have cowboy stew in the crockpot. It smells incredible! I want some!!! lol I added smoked sausage with the stew beef this time. I hope Ben still likes it. From the smell, I guess he would. lol

My heparin shots are going well. The first time I had to stick myself (in the stomach, no less!) I was so nervous. But after that I was ok. It's not that bad. Sometimes it's hard to get in the needle in, but other than that, it's pretty easy.

That's about all the news for now.

J-Tube

Man, it's been a LONG time. I finally got my j-tube replaced today!!! The baby did great! I was sooo relieved. They gave me anesthesia but no narcotics or muscle relaxers so my nausea is controllable!!! That's what always makes me so super sick. Not the anesthesia. Plus, the anesthesia was anti-nausea. I'm so thankful to not have to tape down my tube anymore!!! My skin is ridiculously irritated. Now I can finally start my Heperin shots in my stomach since the surgery is over. I couldn't start it b/c I never knew when it was going to be. Two times it didn't pan out so I was constantly waiting. I knew when they did call it could be within 2 days and I have to be off blood thinners for at least five days before surgery. Anyway, I'm so thankful it's over and done with and that the baby did so well b/c he's 14 weeks now. God really did know the best timing for us both. He def took care of both of us.

My nausea is better now that I'm out of the first trimester. Yay! lol I'm so excited b/c on June 17th (Ben's birthday) we find out what we are having!!! I've been dying to buy clothes. ;-) Also, my best friend is going to come visit me in June! She will be here when we find out the gender of the baby. :-D I'm so thrilled. My sister is about 9 weeks pregnant right now so our kids will be close in age. Only thing is I live faaaarrrr away. lol

I've been listening to a lot of hymns and sermons lately. They have given me even more peace and hope. I struggle sometime with how hard it will be for me to care for our baby, but you know what? GOD got me pregnant and He already knew my health problems. He will give me the strength to get through each day. I've always wanted to be a Mom. I hope and pray I do a good job. The thought of having my own little one is awesome and inspiring. I love our baby so much, and I pray I can hold on for him and give him as much nutrition as he needs to thrive and go. :-) I feel so so blessed. I remember all the other women who can't have kids, and I pray for them. That they will have the strength to keep on hoping and maybe even adopt some day. I still want to adopt. I have always wanted to. :-)

I still haven't done my last school assignment. I'm going to try my hardest to get it done this week. I must! At least, I have my story outline. I just have the fun part - fleshing it out! ;-) I still get tired easily so it's been difficult, but I know God will help me accomplish this like He always does. He never lets us down. EVER.

Hope y'all are having a great day!

Adventurous Night

What a night! Or should I say morning. Early morning. At 2:14 I rolled over in bed. My leg was on my j-tube so when I rolled over my tube pulled out 4 inches!!! I screamed. It hurt so bad!!! I saw that my balloon was deflated which is why it came out. The balloon holds it whenever it gets pulled. Anyway, I got it in about an inch, and then Mom had to get the last 3 inches in b/c I couldn't get it. We had to rush to the ER to make sure it was placed right when we pushed it back in. I had to stop my feeds a little early, too. Anyway, they had to do an x-ray, but they were able to cover the baby so that was great. Oh, I got to see the baby again! He was moving around like crazy! He was doing somersaults. lol So cute. :-)

We finally got home around 5:30. They got me right me in, and it wasn't too busy, thankfully. I'm still hurting and I'm so swelled. If it's not one thing it's another. :-)

All I have to do is hold out till my surgery and hope and pray it doesn't come out again. I'm so nervous about going to sleep tonight.... It's taped down, but I'm also going to wrap it out.

Plus, my phone hasn't been charging and kept on dying, and I get and make tons of doc/medical calls every day. So I had to go get a new one. So more money spent. Argh. lol Such is life. At least I saved $50!

It's been a busy busy day. My poor Mom.... She hardly got any sleep and had to take me to get a new phone and the doc about my j-tube. She is the bestest, sweetest mother ever. I love you, Mummy. ;-)

OB Appointment

So I have some great news. NOT. I went to the OB yesterday, and they decided to put me on a blood thinner. I figured they would since I'm in a wheelchair, but I thought it would be a pill. They decided it's too risky for the pill since I have to surgery in 2-3 months. I could go into preterm labor which would not be good. So.... I have to give myself shots in my abdomen twice a day. I've had these whenever I'm in the hospital but only once a day and never giving it to myself. It burns, of course, and you bruise really bad. I have to do this until I have the baby. Walgreens doesn't have it in yet, but I'm not complaining!!! lol I am so dreading it.... I wish it was in the arm instead. Oh, well. :-)

And then to top it all off, when the doc came in (a different one from last time) he was like so before we get into this more, do you want to continue. I was like what???!! I'm not going to abort my baby. He's a gift! A blessing! Made me so mad. Then they moved my geneticist appt. up to this Thursday in case that changes my mind and I could still do something. THESE DOCS ARE RIDICULOUS!!!!!! What about all the moms out there who don't want their kids and don't take care of their kids? Did you say that to them? Of course not! Because they usually aren't high risk! They just infuriate me. I wish I could switch, but everybody wants me there b/c my GI is there. Sigh. I can't stand the thought of being in labor with one of these docs around.

My quilt should be done next week!!! So thrilled. Mom and I are going to work on the bumper tomorrow, and I need to work on the banner. I have so many appts. this week I don't know how in the world I'm going to finish it. Last night and this evening I'm feeling really sick, or I would work on it now. I'm praying I can finish it by this weekend. I can really use the money, too. :-) I'm hoping to get another order somehow. There is a woman in the quilting class who wants to see pics of my stuff. Maybe that could be a job opportunity. ;-) We'll see. It would be nice....

Tomorrow is my only free day this week! Craft time. :-D